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Module 4.1 - CORE TOPIC: VISION

Has there been a time you were forced to be vulnerable as a leader at work? How did that vulnerability impact you? How did it impact others working with you? Write in your Core Journal of the thoughts that idea brings for you. When was the last time you asked your team to give input as to your performance? Find someone you work with this week and ask, “How is your experience with me.” Allow them room to answer honestly. Share in your Core Journal how that feedback felt to you.

Name: Coreen Campos

I've recently asked staff through anonymous survey and it was interesting because the results were SO varied. Some staff really felt like they trusted me and really liked to work with me and felt supported. Some staff felt like I was manipulative or passive aggressive. What was interesting is that even though this was anonymous the examples given made it very clear who the feedback was from, and I was left trying to assess what was true vs. what was a projection, because this particular staff person was upset because I had to hold them accountable for widespread toxic behavior. The CEO had worked with this person before and had told me that this staff has always 'bullied' their way through and that I was the first person who wasn't letting him get away with it. What that meant was that he was then starting to plant seeds of doubt with the other staff.

I had to filter through what I needed to be accountable for vs. what was projection or deflection. Ultimately, I stuck with it, and I remained stable and steady. This person had a lot of strong skills but definitely is a 'get it done at all costs, even if I stomp all over everyone and even if I yell, cuss or bully employees and outside partners alike,' and although I'd fired people for less, I also realized that our CEO was not going to discipline this person and wanted to keep him onboard. I trust her and also recognized that he does have skillset and I was going to find balance between holding him accountable while also building his skills and showing him support, even when he would go out of his way to try to 'punish me' through gossip, putting me down, giving me the cold shoulder and crying to the CEO. I had to balance making sure my boss, the CEO didn't hear only his side, while not playing games that he was baiting me into, and being steadfast. I also used language to try to express my intention, "I'm sharing this because I want to be sure that we're on the right trajectory here, when partners are calling us that there's cussing and meltdowns, I want to remove you from this situation so things don't get worst, I'm trying to look out for you and our organization, which I know you care about." Even though he told the whole staff and put this down, he ultimately appreciated this. Ultimately, I think this was good for me as it was a new challenge and it helped me see it through and helped me move past and through the conflict. I still don't know if he fully trusts me, but I maintained my integrity, even when it meant disagreeing with my boss, and I hope that it is the consistency which is helping rebuild trust, but time will tell. I suspect based on my interactions that he trusts me more, but I definitely don't trust him as he's typically out for himself. He's also out for the overall organization, but seems to have a different value or view of integrity than I do.

Has there been a time you were forced to be vulnerable as a leader at work? How did that vulnerability impact you? How did it impact others working with you? Write in your Core Journal of the thoughts that idea brings for you. When was the last time you asked your team to give input as to your performance? Find someone you work with this week and ask, “How is your experience with me.” Allow them room to answer honestly. Share in your Core Journal how that feedback felt to you.

Name: Jill West

Honestly, I would love to be part of an organization where vulnerability is appreciated. It hasn’t been my experience. I’ve had some terrible experiences in my attempts to have open relationships in work settings so I just stopped trying. I think this is exacerbated by the fact that my job was often to be “sanity amongst chaos” in organizations that were drowning in toxicity.

I always intended to get back involved with organizations in a professional capacity after my move to NC but family issues and Covid kind of shot that idea. I’m still looking to find somewhere that I fit in the professional world. I’m going through a bit of a depression lately. I feel insignificant in the world. I basically don’t work more than a couple hours a week and the owner of the start-up I’ve been working with has dissolved into his own mental health crisis. Couple that with the crypto market being in a tailspin and all marketing being put on hold until it returns and I feel utterly useless. Helping out with your emails has helped me a lot so thanks for that! My identity has always been largely affected by how good I was at my job. Missing that is taking a toll on me. I have never had to market myself before and now that I’m thinking it needs to happen, I’m completely stumped. I don’t understand why I can’t do for myself what I’ve always been able to do so well for others. Ok… that’s not entirely true - I do understand why: confidence, or the lack thereof.

Has there been a time you were forced to be vulnerable as a leader at work? How did that vulnerability impact you? How did it impact others working with you? Write in your Core Journal of the thoughts that idea brings for you. When was the last time you asked your team to give input as to your performance? Find someone you work with this week and ask, “How is your experience with me.” Allow them room to answer honestly. Share in your Core Journal how that feedback felt to you.

Name: Micah Ruiz Esparza

Vulnerability is a risk. Just like the last module talked about, we have to risk to trust others and risking vulnerability is one of those ways we do that. When we take that risk, others are more comfortable to follow your lead and take a risk too. That is the only way to build teamwork. If you are not willing to risk that trust, you will only have a surface level of trust that won't be as good when difficult situations arise. Vulnerability means not being afraid to share your strengths and weakness and be willing to admit when you are wrong. It is very tied to humility.

There is a strong connection of teamwork and vulnerability/trust. The more a team is able to communicate honestly and courageously, the better they are going to function as a team. When it comes to creativity, there always needs to be a safe place for new ideas and creative ways of tackling issues or bringing in new things. If there is not trust and vulnerability in a team, people will not feel safe to share those ideas which hinders the collective creative process. Creativity is about engagement, even if some ideas are "bad ideas." They can always lead to better ideas.

Vulnerability is something that I practice and need to continue practicing. It is a scary thing. I have been hurt by people by being vulnerable which makes it hard for me to do that. I have had to get better over time.

I spoke with my wife right after a conflict and asked her how she was experiencing me. It gave us an opportunity to discuss how we were feeling and some of the deeper intentions behind the conflict. We weren't able to fully resolve the issue, but it assured us that we are on the same team and trying to do what is best for each other. It definitely is a vulnerable question to ask

Has there been a time you were forced to be vulnerable as a leader at work? How did that vulnerability impact you? How did it impact others working with you? Write in your Core Journal of the thoughts that idea brings for you. When was the last time you asked your team to give input as to your performance? Find someone you work with this week and ask, “How is your experience with me.” Allow them room to answer honestly. Share in your Core Journal how that feedback felt to you.

Name: inpower testing

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